I dream for the day that I have the strength. The day that I care no longer. The day that I break this promise. We both know that it's gone to far. You just might not see it's hurting me. There are others. But they don't see me. You know I could never get anyone to respond. I wish I could tell them. Hell. I wish I could just talk to them. At least let me help when the attacks happen. I hate her face. I hate that I can't help. I see it in her eyes. I just wish she could see mine. I see what they want. I know I could be that but because of you I never will. I was what you needed. But you f**king lied. You never wanted that. Say that you would. Say that if a person like that enters your life that never let them go. Except if it's me a guess. Now I'm just sitting here by myself. Was supposed to be with you but I guess not. I guess I was never enough. Why do I even try. Oh that's right after you I don't anymore. Cause I can't even watch that show now. I hope it ends. And if I keep trying I won't have anything left to watch on the television. You played me to the beat of my heart. Now I can't tell what I am with anyone. I always think that they're playing with me. Look at what you've done. But I'd never complain about it. Especially to you. I just sit there and listen to how bad your life is. That I make it worse. You can't deal with me right now. Well maybe you'll never have to deal with me again. Just waiting on the day. The day I have the strength. Just waiting to see if it's me or you. Hope is the one thing that can destroy everything. One day you will wake up and hear the news. Then you'll remember me. Until then I'm just another person. Just another body. A face with out a name. Well I'll remove the face and the news will give you the name. Then you might know. Probably not.