Im complex yet simple. I don't understand why im this way I just am. People don't understand why I do what I do. I do it because its me and my ability. I trust even when I shouldn't I love because I care im honest to a point to help you on your way. I hurt myself before others at least I try to. In any case this is me the lonely b**tard who fails in every way ~ cam ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I feel lost and broken. I see this void of darkness swirling and moving around me. I feel the anger and hate getting closer and closer. My emotions are uncontrollable. My pain is seen and heard. My hate is felt and know. My love is unseen. My smile shows venom and power. Power unkown and not understood. My eyes are black as the night. This is the darkness of happiness.
You've all heard the saying the most happiest person is the deadliest once you break their boundary. Its not a lie. Im one of these people. My breaking point seems to get closer and closer. I cant hide it or keep it back as much as I use too. My patience is worn thin. My wall against it is falling slowly.
I feel as if I need to get away far away from everyone. I feel as iif a weight is on top of me and I want it to go away. I don't want to be here. I wwant to be free traveling the world at my own pleasure having the ttime of my life. Smile, laugh, and love the one whose right for me. Meet new and amazing people. See the bbeautiful natural wold and all iits glory and light.
Im stuck though unsure of what path to take unsure of who is who anymore. Unsure of who im to become. Of what this world will do to me. WillI become an angry hateful person who wants to hhurt everyone? Or someone of love peace and happiness; one who wants to heal all those around him? I do not know tthe answer...